Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I Am Overwhelmed!!!

I cannot express the gratitude and love that I have for all of you!! I truly appreciate all of your warm wishes and kind words.

I was very down yesterday, and I really didn't know where to turn. I had no idea that Matt told you guys the whole story until I got up in the morning and saw all of your lovely comments.

After I read Matt's blog and your comments, I started to think about the situation once again. But this time I didn't feel what I felt the day before. There was no knot in my stomach, my shoulders didn't hunch in despair, I didn't feel sad. Without those other feelings, I was able to wrap my brain around it and I finally came up with what can only be described as an epiphany.

I have never been happier with in my life than in the last three years. I am a better person now and here's a list of reasons:

1) I was able to make new and better friends without worrying about how the new friend would be received.

2) I am able to tell my new friends exactly how I feel. We are able to talk without fearing how it is heard or that it might end the friendship

3) I was able to start and continue my blog without ridicule. In turn making some wonderful and (I hope) lasting friendships.

4) I don't have to edit myself or my family just in case they stumble on a "sore subject"

I realize that all of these things have something to do with fear, and that is just sad! Friendship should not be about fear.

I want to thank you again for everything you did for me yesterday. You made a very bad day go away so fast. (Where were you 3 years ago???!! LOL!)
So, when I got finally got home today after it took me an hour and a half!!!! (Stupid snow storm!!!) I went on the computer and made all of you an award from me. I hope you display it on your blog to let everyone know how much you mean to me. Now I have two "awards" for you.
The first one is for everyone as a token of my appreciation.

The second one is for all of you as well, but I'm not sure you would appreciate it as much if you didn't read the books or seen the movie. You are of course welcome to it and if you haven't read them or seen the movie, trust me, it's true.

Again, thank you. I only hope that I can be there for all of you as you were for me.


Tori_z said...

I'm glad you're feeling better about things today. *Hugs*

And, you're very welcome! :)

Thanks for the awards... You really didn't have to do that though!

ChicagoLady said...

Tori, what are you doing up at this hour? LOL

Thank you for the award, and I'm so glad you found comfort in our comments. It's amazing how important we (and our blogs) are to each other.

heathersister said...

I love that Cullen award. It is sexy. Going on my sidebar now!

So glad you are feeling better. I was really feeling blue for you. That is how friends are suppose to act. Really. I agree with ChicagoLady it IS amazing how important we (and our blogs) are to each other.

Enjoy your snow today, I am sure your kids have the day off. You can keep that snow, I am fine with going to work today!

Intense Guy said...


Just seeing you "smile" is reward enough. I'm glad you are feeling so much better.

Punkn said...

Thanks for the award. I will display it proudly. I am so happy you are feeling better about things. Life's too short to dwell on the unhappy things in life. Hugss.

Rachel said...

Sooooooo glad to hear you are feeling a lil better!

Love the awards...too cute!

Heather said...

I know EXACTLY which award is mine :)

Thanks so much.

I am so glad we were able to help you feel better quickly. You have a great husband, so willing to get us involved in what was clearly a painful situation.

I don't know why some people are so hateful and difficult. I do know that we need to surround ourselves with people who love us. And your buddies in blogland do love you, in a very bloggy-love kind of way.

You can lean on us any ole time, okay?

angi_b72 said...

Thanks!! That was really sweet!! I will put it on my page this evening! Hope you are feeling better!

ChicagoLady said...

Guess what I just got? An email, that included that picture you used for the award! (Without your loving words on it, though.)

How weird is that?

LadyStyx said...

That's a beautiful award. I hope today is finding more sunshine than gloom in your day. *HUGZ*

merc3069 said...

ooo, how do I find out more about the delicious Cullens?

Grand Pooba said...

Look at those Cullens! What a great idea for an award!

Grand Pooba said...

Now how do I get to Matt's blog? I'm sorry you had a bad day yesterday!

Rebecca Jo said...

Just heard the story....

I'm sorry you've been down & keep having "friends" stomp on your feelings.... isn't it crazy how people let stupid things interfere with things that should be important!!!

Sending you a big Bloggy hug!!!

BTW - totally stealing that Cullen picture - how hot is that!!!

Grand Pooba said...

Oh Becky, I just read your hubby's post. What a strange and heart wretching thing to happen! I have had a friend for about 18 years now and if this happened between us, I would be torn apart!

I hope you can work through this but remember you can only do so much, you seem to be open on your end, but you can't make the other end listen or do something they aren't willing to do.

I hope you feel better today! Thanks for sending me over to your hubby's!